So, on one side of things, my uterine lining is still very much in tact. The cramping was all a big lie, a ruse with no purpose other than to get my hopes up. I’m going to wait two more weeks at the most, and then I’m calling for Provera no matter what that nurse says. I know they can deny it, but I feel like if I’m a pain in the ass maybe they’ll do what I want. What does it matter if I take Provera in two weeks or four? At this point, I can’t think it matters much.
On the upswing, I have liberated myself from temping for the rest of this cycle. It’s obvious I’m not going to ovulate so why should I wake up early every day even when I don’t have to be up to take my temperature? So this morning I didn’t and it feels awesome. Of course I’ll go back to temping when I start a new cycle, but for right now I’m going to enjoy the time off. I’m not going to look at my Fertility Friend account or anything like it until I start bleeding. I’m taking a mental health….week or two from TTC in general, although I’ll still be taking my supplements of course. All of this rebellion has me feeling like a PCOS badass. This song is on loop in my wackadoodle brain today:
Just imagine that the “they” Muse is referring to are my ovaries/ute. It makes it funnier.
Speaking of, my Pregnitude should be arriving today! I’ve been taking the Inositol in pill form but this means I’m taking six a day so I’m pleased to be done with that! The Inositol does make me feel better, so that is also quite thrilling. I’m still sort of sleepy, which leads me to tell you of what I am most proud of my little bleeps. I have been Coke free for six days. I am a cold turkey. Just iced tea and water and skim milk for me! I don’t know why I ever go back to my Coke drinking ways, because I always feel better when I’m done with the stuff. I’m still dealing with how the lack of sugar and caffeine is affecting my energy levels, but I know eventually that’ll level out too.
So anyhoo, that’s the world of librarian today. Not terribly interesting. Stay strong ladies of lackluster lady parts.