Hola mi amigas! It’s Friday!
But I work tomorrow, so boo on that. But still, it’s Friday!
Friday means it’s also weigh in day, and you may not have known this, because I’m the worst blogger ever, but I’ve been suffering from a plateau for the last two weeks or so, and I finally broke it this week. I’m now down 12.5 pounds. This put’s me pretty behind my goal of 30 by May 18, but as I’ve said before, I’ll content myself with anything over 20. I could still hit 30, but it requires 1.5 pounds of loss every week and some weeks it’s just not happening.
This is the first week that I’ve earned so many WW points for working out. The goal is supposed to be 28 a week for weight loss and this week I hit 22. Usually I’m lucky to hit 15, so this is a big accomplishment for me :), especially considering I’m working full time now. I just have to keep it up and not get discouraged by the stupid plateaus. They are usually what makes me stop trying, so I’m proud of myself for pushing through this one. I can’t wait to buy my 20 pounds down outfit! 7.5 pounds to go on that…
This is also the first week that anyone has told me I look smaller. My mom told me on Sunday and my Aunt told me on Tuesday. I think it’s all coming out of my breasts, but hey-that’s a start. Gotta start somewhere I guess 🙂 And my mom is also totally convinced I’m building muscle and is attributing my plateau to muscle weight gain. I think that’s wishful thinking, but I guess it’s possible. I sure feel like I’m working muscles on that elliptical! I’ve grown to LOVE the air force base gym because I can watch TV on the screen of my machine-and they have all the channels! The other day I watched Gilmore Girls and last night I watched Big Bang Theory. It’s sad that TV is such a motivating factor, but it helps me push through the boredom of working out.
The other thing that has vanished? Yep, it’s my period. I’m way overdue, and I’m not preggers (at least not as of Tuesday). I was pretty sure I didn’t ovulate this month but of course when I was late I had to check. So now I don’t know when it will show, but I’m just going to let it take it’s course. No provera for me ever again if I can help it. It’s such a nightmare drug. My sister was talking about a friend of hers on Clomid who was acting crazy and emotional and I almost piped up with “yeah that’s how I was on it” but quickly remembered that my family doesn’t know anything about our failed pregnancy attempts, and I don’t want them to know, at least not right now. I was really riding high on the whole regulated period thing, but I sort of knew it was too good to be true. Maybe it’ll come back someday. Maybe when I lose some more weight I’ll have better results. They say that for PCOS women who are overweight losing 10-20% of their weight can assist in returning cycles to normal. I’m not there yet, but hoping for the best when I get there. In the meantime, I’m having lots of strange discharge, but now EWCM except for a tiny bit a few days ago. Maybe I’m just ovulating really late? Geez. What a pain being a girl is. I want my money back.
So still here, a little smaller, more confused about my lady parts, but happier with myself than I’ve ever been. All in all, things could be a lot worse 🙂