So, I figured it’s time for two things:
1. I’m coming out of the closet. Sort of. I’m not going to broadcast my name/location out there, but I figure if anyone has “found me” that knows me in real life, they have already figured out it’s me. Seeing these pictures isn’t going to be the thing that tips them off. That being said, if you have “found me”, please understand that this blog is so sacred to me. It’s so important to my mental sanity. Sometimes I vent hateful and bitter feelings here. Sometimes I put intimate details about my husband and I’s sex life. So if you’ve found me, please keep it to yourself.
2. I’ve worked my butt off, literally. I’ve lost 53 pounds this year and I’m ready to show you guys the pictures. The after picture isn’t even that great, because the dress I’m wearing in it isn’t form fitting at all-I’m still struggling with that. Chief and I are having pictures made tomorrow so I’ll put some of those up, but I’ve been nervous about them so I thought a before and after post might help boost my confidence. Sometimes I have to go back and look at how I used to look to really appreciate how I look now. Both of the pictures have other people cropped out, which is why they’re close up on me. I didn’t want to get permission from all those folks without revealing to them why I needed it. So without further ado, here is my before (from a wedding last December):
And here is my after (from a wedding last month):
The before is painful for me to look at. I can’t believe I let myself get so big. Hopefully after tomorrow I’ll have a better after picture. I’m still pretty afraid to show my shape in my dresses, so I lean towards empire styles or straight and loose, but in our pictures I’m wearing jeans, which seems to be the most form revealing thing I feel comfortable wearing.
So anyway, that’s me.