Thank you guys so much for all the support. I don’t even have words for how much you guys help me through these rough times. Especially when I’m not sharing with my family.
I am not panicking anymore. I am still worried, but I have a lump. Worrying won’t make it go away. I have an appointment for April 1 and for now that has to be good enough. I didn’t even mention it to Dr. T because I honestly forgot. I have to think it can’t be anything that serious.
This isn’t to say that I won’t panic and worry some over the next few weeks, but for now I’m calm.
Pawpaw is doing better, but still pretty weak. His blood sugar is straightened out but he can’t sit up with even two strong guys helping him. He is insistent on going home. His blood still way off in consistency, so they’re working on that too. But for now he seems stable, and that’s something.
My appointment went better than I could have ever expected. My uterus looks awesome-really. The lining is so much better than it ever was with Clomid-why do people use Clomid? It’s super thick, it jumped right out at me on the screen! So he said my estrogen is responding well to the letrozole. Then he panned over to the left ovary and I said “Holy crap-that’s huge!” and he said “Yeah, we’re definitely not upping your dose.” I was worried and asked if I had hyperstimulated and he said no, that it looked great, but it didn’t need to be any bigger than that. AND THEN he said we could trigger anytime from today until Saturday. It seems so early! Today is just CD 10 (notice the lack of quotation marks). We got the trigger from the only pharmacy in town that carries it (thank you Target) and I’m going to go in tomorrow morning and let them do it. I’m too afraid of screwing it up. So tomorrow is the day we RELEASE THE KRAKEN.
I honestly can’t believe I’ve responded this well. I thought even if I responded my uterus would look like crap, but no-everything looks great. He thinks we have a really good shot. And I’ve lost 6 pounds from not eating bread for only FIVE DAYS. And y’all, I’ve been eating. Mostly pretty healthy, like tuna and yogurt and carats and cheese, but last night I had ice cream for dinner. Bread is the devil. But oh so delicious.
Tomorrow is the one week mark until my birthday. Let’s hope for good things.