Good Morning Bleeps.
I am feeling better today. Still a little blue around the edges, but better-and I owe it all to you. You were all there for me yesterday. It’s so wonderful to have a group of ladies who can really identify with me in this struggle. You really got me through it. On the agenda for today are discussions of Progesterone and breaking up with Dr. T.
1. Progesterone. So here’s the thing. I’ve taken Prometrium in the past when I haven’t ovulated to bring on a period. It never gave me symptoms, I think because it is a small dose (200 mg a day before bed). This time however I believe I DID ovulate, because my symptoms have been terrible. Crampiness, really, REALLY sore boobs (let’s just get down to it, they’re not sore, they’re PAINFUL), bloatedness, etc. So anyway. Since I’m not pregnant my natural progesterone is going to fall probably sometime this weekend. I want to extend my cycle to try and time CD 3 as close to my appointment on May 5 as possible. With my natural progesterone falling soon (its 13 DPO today), should I double up my artificial progesterone dose to try and keep my lining in tact as long as possible? I just feel like 200 mg won’t be enough.
2. I’ve been trying to decide what to do about my OBGYN. I know I shouldn’t feel so special as to think that he’s just going to be crushed when I leave, but I also don’t want to just fax over the release of information form and let him find out that way. I feel like I should call the nurse and let her know what I’m doing and that I hope to be back, and pregnant, by the end of the year. I even thought about baking them cookies and hand delivering the release form. I just want them to know that I don’t blame them for not getting pregnant. If anything I blame myself for not leaving earlier when I knew I should. Did any of you have this sort of struggle? I’m just incredibly loyal to him. I’ve been through a lot while in his care-me and the nurse talk like friends when I’m there. It’s just tough for me.