Is this just fantasy?
Ahem. Sorry, had a Queen moment for a second there.
I’ve thought for a long time about what I would say in this post. But I’m just going to say it: It seems that after three years and countless amounts of money, effort, tears, and heartache that I’m pregnant.
It’s only 11 DPO. I wasn’t going to test until tomorrow, but I woke up crampy and feeling dooms dayish, so I took a wondfo using THIRD MORNING URINE. Seriously I had to force it out. It looked negative (I gave it all of thirty seconds) so I tossed it. Then of course ten minutes later I fished it out and there was a very clear, very light pink line. Picture below:
I’m having a hard time believing this is real. At first I wrote it off as trigger, but that was 13 days ago and the last time I tested out my trigger it was gone by 9 days past trigger. Plus I don’t think it would be that dark. Right? Right? RIGHT?
I’m kind of losing my mind. I’m of course terrified of this being chemical or worse, but I’m also allowing myself to keep the faith and believe just a little bit. If this turns out to be the real deal and lasts we will hit the second trimester on December 23rd-perfect timing to tell Chief’s parents while we’re there. I’m already thinking of all sorts of cutesy ways to do it.
But I’m still very much in “this is not possible” mode, because at Target today I averted my eyes from maternity wear and baby things like I always do. I’m not a member of that club yet. I’m just can’t believe it ACTUALLY worked.
It worked, right?