So. Yesterday. It went well.
And now it all just feels like it really is going to happen. This baby, inside me right now, is going to be a Little Human outside of me in nine months (give or take). My little Junebug.
HOW FUCKING CRAZY IS THAT?
So anyway, they set up my first ultrasound. I’ll be 6w2d and it’s on October 30th. Luckily Chief and I are going on a trip next week for our three year anniversary (totally planned before this big surprise!). We’re going to Atlanta to visit the giant aquarium, and the zoo, and the botanical gardens, and whatever else we can fit in (maybe the Coke museum?). I’m really excited and HOPING that morning sickness holds off until 6 weeks so traveling isn’t too tough. This is so well timed because it takes five days of obsessing about the ultrasound out of the picture. At least somewhat. We’ll be too busy having fun 🙂
Speaking of having fun, I’m terrified of having sex. I don’t think it’s going to make me miscarry or anything (some studies show that it actually leads to lower miscarriage numbers). It’s just that I’m still sort of crampy, particularly at the end of the day, and who wants to get jiggy with it like that? Chief hasn’t even MENTIONED it, so I know he’s probably afraid of hurting the baby. If the crampiness can go away and the first U/S goes well, I think we can get past this hurdle.
Also, I chickened out on stopping my met. I’m just too afraid of stopping it in the first trimester without express orders from my doctor, so I opted for taking lopramide, which they said is safe but to be careful with, because it could quickly turn the diarrhea into constipation. It’s what I’d been taking to manage my diarrhea on met before I was pregnant and so far it’s working out okay. I took one last night and I don’t feel stopped up or anything. Yet. And no more diarrhea. This is also helping me pee less, because in an effort to rehydrate quickly between bouts of diarrhea I was chugging water and having to go CONSTANTLY. Now it’s only every few hours. Not so bad.
All in all, I feel pretty normalish right now. I still want to tell EVERYONE of course, and I’ve started stressing a little about money, but we’ll be okay. I always have extra money for buying clothes and stuff, so that’s going to come to an end anyway (other than maternity staples to get me through). I did buy some maternity summer dresses on sale from Target. They were super cheap-like $8.00 each. And I figure by June I’ll be huge and need them!
My breasts are already stretching my dresses up top a little. I don’t see myself wearing anything with a zipper for a good while. I’ve also ordered a chalkboard so that we can start taking weekly pictures and I can draw what the week is and the fruit that my baby is mimicking. If it comes in time I can start with week six (blueberry). Week five will be Tuesday and I don’t think it’ll be here by then, plus Junebug will be the size of a sesame seed by then, which is not attractive to draw in chalk. Or ever.
And finally, in a true show of letting my heart hope, Chief and I started thinking about nursery designs and looking at pictures last night. We also picked some of our favorite names-we don’t agree on too many! We’ve agreed that if it’s a girl I get to pick first and he gets to pick middle and visa versa for a boy. Of course, we both get veto power so that no one is just miserable with a name. We both agree that we have to at least “like” the names.
It’s so early. We are crazy. Crazy in love with our Little Human and so hoping they stay for a while.