And by “it”, I mean I’ve gotten myself into a situation of having too many different things to talk about to make one coherent post.
It’s been a while since I’ve talked about my body, and I believe in being frank and honest about pregnancy, childbirth, babies, and bodies. So something to celebrate:
I’m back at prepregnancy weight! Go weightwatchers! And if anything my supply has increased rather than taking the dive I was concerned it would take when I started losing. Probably it’s being helped by my much more nutritious diet. I’ve also started adding oats to my morning smoothie, and oats are a breastfeeding super food.
I’m still supplementing with fiber three times a day because after all the bowel problems I had after C was born I’m afraid to stop. Did you know they make fiber gummies now? I put benefiber in my smoothie and then have gummies with lunch and dinner. That on top of my increased fruit and veg intake is keeping things smooth sailing for me, thank goodness.
But while I’m back at prepregnancy weight and even fitting into some prepregnancy clothes, my body is incredibly different. My belly is much saggier, and obviously my breasts are too. I’ve got what my Jewish ex-coworker calls Hadassah arms, although as much as Charlie loves to “fly” I think I’m moving towards Michelle Obama arms real soon (please?).
My beautiful pregnancy curls are quickly leaving. i can’t tell if my hair is falling out or if it’s just returning to it’s normal, thinner, ugly curly-frizzy texture. Either way, bummer. I was hoping to hold on to that glorious pregnancy hair a wee bit longer. Once I’m a bit farther post partum I think I’m going to try a body perm. Big rollers-not tiny scary Shirley Temple ones.
Probably my biggest problem is my back. My upper back is a freaking mess. It hurts pretty constantly. I would imagine this pain is three fold in origin: 1) I carry a baby around all the time 2) I nurse a baby all the time 3) nursing the aformentioned baby comes with the giant bazoongas. I don’t really know what to do about it. Chief is currently in physical therapy for his back and there’s no way we can both be doing it at the same time. SOMEONE has got to watch this baby. I also don’t know that PT would even help honestly. I keep hoping that as I get stronger it’ll get better, but not so far. Somedays it seems to be getting worse.
Little C is doing great. I took her to the doctor last week because she had been spitting up really bad, and with her already being on the small side I didn’t want her to not gain weight properly. Of course, as soon as I made the appointment she stopped spitting badly, but I kept it anyway because I wanted to see her weight on the doctors scale. She had gained, though lost in percentile points, but surprisingly the doctor wasn’t worried. He said she had gained enough to convince him she’s getting enough calories and that some babies just stay on the small side, and that’s okay. He said a happy baby is way more important than a big baby.
And Charlie is super happy all the time. Her personality is really starting to shine and that personality is beautiful. I get smiles all day long unless she needs a nap. She giggles and has even straight up laughed a few times. She loves to bounce, she now will let me actually put her down to like, feed myself and stuff, and she’ll nap in her swing for up to two hours at a time.
My local news recently did an anticosleeping story and talked about how dangerous it is because of our modern soft mattresses and pillows and stuff. Every time I see something like that it freaks me out and makes me thing I should transition C out of our bed altogether. She sleeps in her bassinet until about 3:30 am-ish and then when she gets up to nurse I just let her stay in bed with me. I have a guard rail up on my side of the bed so she can’t fall out, and it’s a child one so it’s mesh. I NEVER let her up near my head, she’s always at my breast, and I don’t have any blankets on her. I feel like i’m as safe as can be, and there are so many studies that show how positive cosleeping is. Babies actually respond to the carbon dioxide we breathe out-we act like a breathing pacemaker for them during this crucial time of development. I try to surround myself with a lot of information and knowledge. And the fact of the matter is that C just sleeps better when she’s with me. Today after I was at the law firm I was straight up exhausted so I snuggled up with her and we both took a 3.5 hour nap. It was amazing. I feel SO much better. And I love waking up to see her sweet face nuzzled up to my chest.
C is so long she’s about to outgrow her bassinet, so this weekend we’re transitioning to the pack n play and I am hella nervous about it. Probably it’ll be no big deal and she’ll be just fine, but I’m predicting horrific, up all night crying style problems. Fingers crossed for me, k?
I’m enjoying being at the law firm again. The only problem is the aforementioned back problem. I have to sit and work with my arms pretty constantly at the law firm, as well as carry heavy books up and down stairs and stuff. Right now my workload there is pretty light so I haven’t had to be away from C for longer than four hours, but she’s doing so great at my cousin’s house! She takes a bottle from her really well and they seem to have a genuinely good time together. I’m so grateful that my cousin does this for me.
My at home work is okay too. It’s a bit mind numbing at times, and I couldn’t make myself do it any longer than the 3.5-4 hours a day that I’m doing it now, but it’s fine. And it helps me stay home with my girl, so I’m grateful to have it. I can’t really talk about it that much because I actually had to sign a non disclosure agreement. But again, overall it’s fine.
I started to type this out as part of this post, but it’s so long. SO LONG. So I’ll post two posts today.